I'm at the point of rethinking and starting over. Thanks for the encouragement.
As a youth I learned "hard work and a positive attitude" earned success. It worked. But now the work ethic is 24/7 insane but it seems no one cares who you are. I hope to change that in my new effort.

I love this! It reminds me of a scripture that has really been in my mind and heart for the last year.
2 Peter 1:5-9 For this very reason, make every effort to supplement your faith with virtue, and virtue with knowledge, and knowledge with self-control, and self-control with steadfastness, and steadfastness with godliness, and godliness with brotherly affection, and brotherly affection with love. For if these qualities are yours and are increasing, they keep you from being ineffective or unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. For whoever lacks these qualities is so nearsighted that he is blind, having forgotten that he was cleansed from his former sins.