For years, I came up with any excuse I could to keep from even getting in line at Six Flags.
“I’m not feeling good.”
“These rides are boring.”
Eventually though, whether through peer pressure or the forcive will of my parents, I found myself strapped into a seat wondering, “What have I gotten myself into?”
Normally, when you read blog posts like this, the author goes on about how the ride wasn’t as bad as they imagined. They realized that the fear was all in their head, and now, not only do they love roller coasters, but they design them for a living. This may have been the experience of other writers, but not this one.
When the ride was over, I was terrified, near tears, and more than slightly sick to my stomach. Walking through the exit, I felt as though I’d dodged certain death. My fear hadn’t magically disappeared. It was still very, very present. So what did I do?
I got right back in line.
I rode the Raging Bull 13 times that day, and every single time, I was scared. I felt queezy and unsure. Never once was it easy, but every time, the fear got a little quieter. The little voice in head telling me I was going to die grew more and more unsure with each successful loop and turn.
I have published 2 books, 85 YouTube videos, and over 500 blog posts, and every single time, I have been scared. Every time I hit “publish”, I feel a bit queezy and unsure. Never once has it been easy, but every time, the fear gets a little quieter. The little voice in my head saying, “your writing is stupid”, or “no one cares what you have to say”, that voice sounds more and more unsure with each post.
Why did I ride Raging Bull 13 times that first day? For the same reason I started blogging consistently, because the only way to rob the fear of it’s power is to face it over and over and over again. The more consistently we embrace uneasiness and face the fear, the more we come to realize the fear is just full of hot air. It’s threats are empty. It’s game is weak.
Face it. Embrace it.
In an effort to increase the rate at which I rob fear of its power in my own life, I will be increasing my number of blog posts from three to five times a week (Monday-Friday). You can subscribe here if you’re interested in going on this journey with me. I appreciate you all.